Question: Do you have particular feelings or insights
when you receive Holy Communion? Have
you ever had a mystical experience at Mass or Holy Communion?
Answer: No.
Typically, I do not
recall particular unusual or ‘other worldly’ experiences at Mass or Holy
Communion. Two or three, at least, in
1981/82 I recall a moment of what I might call lucidity or raised awareness of
a higher power or love looking over a group of people. That lucidity was a
moment of quiet peace and joy that is hard to put in words. However, this was not in
the context of a celebration of Mass. Rather, it was during a meeting of Christians
gathered in the name of Jesus – on one occasion to sing the Divine Liturgy of
Vespers or Compline and the other during a meet of people to share experiences.
Frankly, I am not what one might call a particularly outward person given to strong
emotional expressions or someone who has had special ‘mystical’ experiences
however that might be defined.
Since embracing or
re-embracing Catholicism more than one in my adult life I have adhered to a
very ordinary and unremarkable practice of participation. Speaking in tongues,
having visions, being slain by the Holy Spirit and bursting into tears of joy
or compunction is not my way. In no way, do I disparage or dismiss those who follow
a different way of expression.
Of course, there have
been times of particular consolation or even excitement such as when receiving
during the Covid-19 period after being ‘locked in’ for a while.
All that said, I will
confide that at least one of the seven sacraments has been the occasion, at
times, of strong feeling and insight into God’s mercy – the Sacrament of Reconciliation
or Penance. Therein, lies a jewel in Catholic practice and life and one that I have never let go of since 1981.